Well I haven't been here in forever and now I sooo need to be. I had some BIG disappointments in the last year that I can't seem to recover from. I now feel as if I am on a hopeless downward spiral. I only leave my bed when I absolutly have to. I sleep 14 to 16 hours a day and am on the computer when I'm up. I don't do anything I once enjoyed anymore. If it involves effort I can't be bothered! I am a little better on the weekends w/ my husband around. I leave the house w/ him and it's ok then. During the week if one of my 2 pt jobs call I'll work and if my daughter needs me I'll move otherwise I'm tring to sleep. I would rather dream of what could have been than is. I'm not suicidal but I see little to no hope that things can ever be happy or good again. I have only proved by tring that I am a complete failure again. The OCD is coming back stronger and stonger each day. I need to clean but I try to do only small parts as I see the signs of loosing myself. Right now my nephew is staying w/ us and it's good and bad. I would be cleaning and the house would look better if I was alone but I probably couldn't stop if I started. I am so pathetic to be so lazy and avoid cleaning just cause I'm unsure. I wish I could make things "normal". I start w/ a new therapist Wednesday, not sure if I should even bother it's only going to help for 6 weeks. I have no insurance so I can have 6 free sessions, nice but what's the point? Mabye I'll just take another nap…
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I ate hate and vomited death.
exploitedenjoyment, , OCD, Mindfulness, Sleep Disorders, 2
Can I be more trapped?? Everywhere I go, everything I do, every moment I'm not at home I count...
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New Obsession, New Torture
Mentally_Scorn, , OCD, Anger, Codependency, Grief, Weight Loss, 1
So, I love my gf to death, liek more than i love anything else, to the point its probably...
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Verbal abuse
ANAID, , OCD, Anger, Child, Relationships, 1
IN MY 23 YR RELATIONSHIP HE'S BEEN SOOO VERBAL ABUSEVE AND I DON'T KNOW WHY I CONTINUT TO PUT...
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My current obsessions
bluecanary, , OCD, Anxiety, Bipolar, Medication, OCD, Psychosis, Schizophrenia, Stress, Therapist, Therapy, 1
As with most folks who have OCD, I've got a number of different things that I'm stressing/obsessing about, but...
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New here with OCD and need help
kathrynaldrich, , OCD, Anxiety, OCD, 7
Hi everyone! My name is Kathryn. I have OCD and am so glad to have found this site. I...
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So confused…
thegirlnextdoor89, , OCD, Anxiety, Bipolar, Depression, OCD, PTSD, Sleep Disorders, Stress, Therapist, Therapy, 2
So, I just got diagnosed (by a new psychiatrist), 2 days ago, with OCD, PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder),...
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Do we really need to go there?
HereIFindMyself, , OCD, Anxiety, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, Depression, OCD, Therapist, Therapy, 3
I went to therapy expecting to learn cbt on how to deal with intrusive thoughts and to learn how...
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Frustrated…>:-(
thegirlnextdoor89, , OCD, OCD, Therapist, 0
So, I just got into a fight with my parents, because most of the time I’m SO BUSY with...
Please don't give up hope. There is always hope. There has to be.