well today it was another day….not so good not so bad…I just hate myself today because I DON'T HAVE ENERGY…that happens often I 'm always tired,out of energy even when I'm not working..that's hurt me because my 4 yrs old son is a healthy boy full of energy and he need's me..he wants me…it just stronger than me…I know what I need to do but I JUST CAN'T and I don't know why everything is so hard…?! 🙁 all I want is stay in my bed everyday and all day if I could..but I go work 10 hrs a day (wich is already a challenge for me) I work in a fast food restaurant as a manager..deal with people…be around people…talk to people and that's bother me…I feel unpatience..I feel I want to cry just little a little stupid girl 🙁 …I just feel that I don't have enough AIR….God knows how much I miss my old times that I was so happy,positive and full of energy..working out everyday…enjoying my time with my son….enjoying spending time with friends….today I want to avoid all this..my friends thinks that I'm bad friend but I don't feel like tell them what's going on…I'm sure they won't understand…no one does..not even my fiance 🙁 so I'm just a lazy ,negative and weird girl….:( I just wish things was different….most of the people out there are unable to understand my situation 🙁 that's makes me feel so lonely..insecure and afraid of everything…my anxiety is hurting me so much and physically as well…I feel traped in a big dark hole that I can't get off and no one can see me there!!!! if I yell they will ignore me…so I have to hold myself….it's so complicated that I got confuse with myself…I'm feel so weak 🙁 I'm losing my strenght…I don't want to lose because I have a son..but I can't help it 🙁 how long more I have to live with this.?I'm afraid about life…:(