When I was going out with my last girlfriend I started to write a book with just stuff we had done, tickets stuck in it, photos and stuff, a kind of scrap book I guess. Well around new years she left me but we stayed friends, I hadn't finished the book yet but also wasn't in the mood to write any more, so I made some notes on everything I would have put in there and left it. Today I decided to finish it so I could give it to her as a friend, I was writting stuff in it about some stuff we had done before we broke up and it was fine, the I got to the last time I saw her before we broke up, we had to have nearly 2 months appart, we were leaving London on the underground, we had to get off at seperate stops, hers before mine. In the past when this happens We'd quickly say goodbye on the train, then I'd run off behind her, hug her and say a proper goodbye, this time the underground was very busy and we had had a hard time getting on the train anyway, so i decided I would just stay on the train this time or I might miss my next train. But little did I know at the time that waving to her through the train window as it pulled away would be the last time I'd see her as a couple. Writing that we went home that day has really upset me, some people might think that that's silly, but I find it very upsetting that not only did I not know I where I would be about a month and 1/2 later, but that the one time I didn't jump off to say goodbye properly also ended up being the last time.
Memories
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Thursday 5th July 2012- Pap Smears & Grumpy Husbands: What a delightful day!
patnatharry, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Sleep Disorders, Stress, Weight Loss, 0
Super stressed all afternoon hoping that the bleeding would stop long enough so I could have my pap,...
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Who am I?
Prince Star, , Anxiety, Depression, LGBT, Lesbian, Gay, LGBTQ, Relationships, 2
Hi. My name is Alexander Michael and I am a female to male transgender boy. I am here to...
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Cry
Teig, , Anxiety, Depression, Grief, Relationships, 4
I might just go psycho, my boyfriend is back in my life sadly, known that he cheated on me,...
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Trying to acheive things in life, but life keeps kicking me down.
nemesis1337, , Depression, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Grief, Relationships, Stress, Suicide, 0
My birthday just passed and I was secluded as always. I had a boyfriend of almost 2 years and...
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Fly in day
uberbobolink, , Depression, Medication, Sleep Disorders, Therapy, 0
When I flew home yesterday I didn’t have a car. My sister had borrowed it for the week and...
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Major break down
NanaW, , Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, Marriage & Family, Anxiety, Depression, Domestic Abuse, Relationships, Self Esteem, 2
Tonight has been like most nights paiful but ive never felt so worthless in my life, my partner of...
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You''re supposed to have someone. All I have are a pannel of judges.
redhead20, , Depression, Relationships, 0
Had lunch with "friends" today. They were all happy and talking about a party they went to last night...
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Day at the River
sadviolinist, , Depression, Child, Questions, Sleep Disorders, Stress, 0
I'm feeling a little bit more up today than yesterday. I'm not questioning my existence today or letting myself...

