When I was going out with my last girlfriend I started to write a book with just stuff we had done, tickets stuck in it, photos and stuff, a kind of scrap book I guess. Well around new years she left me but we stayed friends, I hadn't finished the book yet but also wasn't in the mood to write any more, so I made some notes on everything I would have put in there and left it. Today I decided to finish it so I could give it to her as a friend, I was writting stuff in it about some stuff we had done before we broke up and it was fine, the I got to the last time I saw her before we broke up, we had to have nearly 2 months appart, we were leaving London on the underground, we had to get off at seperate stops, hers before mine. In the past when this happens We'd quickly say goodbye on the train, then I'd run off behind her, hug her and say a proper goodbye, this time the underground was very busy and we had had a hard time getting on the train anyway, so i decided I would just stay on the train this time or I might miss my next train. But little did I know at the time that waving to her through the train window as it pulled away would be the last time I'd see her as a couple. Writing that we went home that day has really upset me, some people might think that that's silly, but I find it very upsetting that not only did I not know I where I would be about a month and 1/2 later, but that the one time I didn't jump off to say goodbye properly also ended up being the last time.
Memories
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No Lone Rangers
Ellowynne, , Depression, Addiction, Anger, Anxiety, Child, Grief, Sleep Disorders, Weight Loss, 0
My chest was hurting on the right side, inside… I felt anxiety and lots of fears… not worry so...
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Went friggen dancing woooooooooooooshaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lol
MoonWolfEagle, , Depression, Career, 0
is heather ,MB in da house ??? i heard you all been helpen ini your indivigual styles and ed...
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Bleeding Hearts
Jack, , Depression, Anxiety, Depression, Domestic Abuse, Therapy, 1
Along with my mother and brother, I visited my father today. He is in a Rehabilitation Center undergoing therapy...
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Possibly triggering
Steph_jn, , Depression, Child, Divorce, Domestic Abuse, Questions, Relationships, Self Esteem, Therapy, Weight Loss, 2
Today started out as a good day. I was content if not happy. The weekend had went well. My...
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Release
beachgirl20, , Depression, Anxiety, Career, Depression, Sleep Disorders, Stress, 0
So I’ve recently been feeling more anxious and depressed. I can’t sleep because I have so much on my...
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It just gets worse
cesarsghost, , Depression, Depression, Medication, Sleep Disorders, 0
It's been over a year since I was laid off and now, I am so depressed it's not even...
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Low kind of day, not low key just low
SnowDrop, , Depression, Hoarding, Medication, Therapist, Therapy, Weight Loss, 2
I’m still low today… I cried more than I should have and the moments of feeling good have yet...
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My Friday
sadviolinist, , Depression, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Medication, Parenting, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, 0
My sleep schedule is so messed up. I'm exhausted all day long, but then in the early a.m. I'm...
