When I was going out with my last girlfriend I started to write a book with just stuff we had done, tickets stuck in it, photos and stuff, a kind of scrap book I guess. Well around new years she left me but we stayed friends, I hadn't finished the book yet but also wasn't in the mood to write any more, so I made some notes on everything I would have put in there and left it. Today I decided to finish it so I could give it to her as a friend, I was writting stuff in it about some stuff we had done before we broke up and it was fine, the I got to the last time I saw her before we broke up, we had to have nearly 2 months appart, we were leaving London on the underground, we had to get off at seperate stops, hers before mine. In the past when this happens We'd quickly say goodbye on the train, then I'd run off behind her, hug her and say a proper goodbye, this time the underground was very busy and we had had a hard time getting on the train anyway, so i decided I would just stay on the train this time or I might miss my next train. But little did I know at the time that waving to her through the train window as it pulled away would be the last time I'd see her as a couple. Writing that we went home that day has really upset me, some people might think that that's silly, but I find it very upsetting that not only did I not know I where I would be about a month and 1/2 later, but that the one time I didn't jump off to say goodbye properly also ended up being the last time.
Memories
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I cant get no sleep!
Rach_B, , Depression, Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, PTSD, Relationships, Self Esteem, Sleep Disorders, Therapy, 1
So past month or so been a bit of a balls up.. to put it bluntly.. what I have...
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Pet Therapy
Fahnette, , Depression, Anxiety, Grief, Relationships, 0
About two years after my near-death, I decided I wanted a dog. I was getting tired of being home...
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Numbers and sight.
sadjac, , Depression, 0
So today I went to class. An achievement in itself. This class is an introduction to accounting. I’m not...
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Crappy Day… But, I Deleted My Facebook And Myspace Accounts!!!
lag823, , Depression, Anger, Child, Grief, Questions, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, 2
So, I am pretty peaceful right now, because I finally deleted my Facebook and Myspace accounts. This is something...
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Numb
Silent_Tears68, , Depression, Child, Divorce, Relationships, Therapy, 0
so my husband said he wanted a divorce. he said that the more he stayed with me the more...
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Down, Then Back Up
KnockedDown, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, 1
I made my profile name "KnockedDown" largely because I want to feel like yeah, I've been knocked down, life...
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Thursday 25
blueyes36, , Depression, Child, Hoarding, Medication, Religion, Suicide, Therapist, 1
Today, It’s all a blur, coming and going in and out of my head! Was it me that lived...
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I really screwed up
Digital, , Depression, Grief, OCD, Relationships, 2
I really screwed up, this weekend I tried to kills myself. well with the intervention of my girlfriend, well...

