Today was the second interview. Pretty much my day consisted of small hurdles. I wanted to dress for success, that’s what you’re supposed to do, right? I wore a pair of khaki pants and a nice shirt…….it was nearing 90 degrees today. I wore a pair of khaki pants…….monthly started. I expected there to be an interview…….I sat in a lovely air conditioned bookstore to fill out tax information and sign the company adherance policy. I called for a ride home as I don’t drive and my father works only 5 blocks away……..he had left for the day. I took the bus to the rapid station……..there were no seats available on the rapid. I stood on a very jarred rapid until the first stop and found a seat……..realized the heat was on. IT WAS ALMOST 90 DEGREES AND THE HEAT WAS ON. I have Multiple Sclerosis and the heat really really affects how I feel. I tried to stay positive all day, remembering that the manager who I met today had said the other 2 managers I have spoken to spoke very highly of me. Until this evening. I took a walk with my sisters. I am trying to be pro-active and exercise, but again, the heat + MS = horrible. I get home to my 17 year old brother cutting me down because I called for a ride home. I was told to call home when we were done. But I was cut down and cut down and pretty much told that I was worthless and the reason why I am overweight is because I don’t do anything. I get cut down because my MS acts up when I get too hot. I get cut down because I am not willing to go outside and play basketball with my egotistical, sore winner of a brother. I get cut down because I don’t have a job. I get cut down because I was caught crying over being cut down.
When can I finally be happy? When can I finally get a chance to be happy for what I accomplish? When can I finally get cut a break? Just give me a break!