Hi, My life sucks so much. I just can’t deal with the pain that I have gone though, this is not a inspiration thing but this is my story, and sorry if I sound a crazy/insane.

So it all started 2 years ago when my cousin di….die…..died from a massive brain bleed and I never knew her, or that I don’t have a memory of her. That’s when I started to became suicidal, and Depressed. I felt so alone and out of control, so I grabbed a knife and started cutting myself. That was when I had my first suicide attempt, I grabbed my knife and went biking I went deep into a forest thinking that I would just bleed to death right there and know one would find me in time. So I sit down grabbed my knife and I was about to stab myself when someone came behind me and grabbed me and took the knife out of my hand, That person was and has been the only person that knows that I have tried.

But about 1 year ago I was just biking and then I saw a cute little kitten on the road that looked like it was only about 1 year’s old and so I was going to get it and then I saw a car pass by and I was screaming at the car to stop but I was to late and then I saw the car run over the cat and I felt like it was my fault, and then I tried killing myself again for the second time but I didn’t have the guts to jump and so i went home and started going crazy.

And thats my story.