I couldn’t be more angry. Or more anything really. This girl I really digged, and it was a long thing, too, totally played me. We have been friends for a year and we were VERY close. I mean, we told each other everything. Well, I started having those ‘other’ feelings for her. She said she was, too. Well stuff happened and we kissed, whatever right? Well, she decides to say she doesn’t like me like that. Whatever. We got over it.

   This is where I am feeling the most anger. She told me soon after she liked me more than a friend. She said she didn’t want to lie anymore. Well, finally I noticed something was up and I got her to admit she doesn’t even like me. So I lost a close friend because she screwed me over and lost lots of self-asteem, etc. What bothers me the most is she’s finding ways to blame it on me, saying "well I didn’t want to make you feel bad" and stuff like that. JUST BE HONEST. I WOULD HAVE BEEN FINE BEING FRIENDS.

   Sorry I had to write it. It’s been in my mind a lot recently and, I know, you’re young you don’t know anything, blah blah blah. I still have that feeling I have for certain people, I’d go to the hospital for her, I’d do so much for her. I’d say I love her in some way, you know? It just hurts to know after being there for her she could mess with me repeatedly and then blame it on me. She said she doesn’t want to talk everyday because bad things happen. I know if I did this I’d be looked at as some pervert looking for sex, but because she’s a girl she gets away with it a little bit. And, I don’t want sex. It’s on my mind like ANYONE IN THE WORLD, but it’s really not what I want. She told me I didn’t need a girl to be complete, but I need some people in my life to be complete, and she was like THAT person to go to. Now when I’m depressed or facing issues with my medications I’m sitting alone feeling like dying.