Just listening to my kool new playlist.”chillin”
If you haven’t heard it check it out. I really like Saving me (nickel back) and every thing changes(stained).

I want to thank all of you here on this site for your support. I underestimated the site. But like my live support groups I really believe I am learning to feel. Every day is another challenge, and my thoughts and feelings seem to be different. all the time. I brought alot of what I am going through on myself because I have a hard time listening to problems, but i am getting better. I really have never handled any pain or hurt, to amount to anything so it was easy to keep going when I hurt someones feelings in the past, I am now dealing with many years or hurt and fear I really never recognized. Until this thing I am going through right now. If I had known what I was missing out on I would have been in classes and group along time ago.
Although I do not know where I stand with my wife I know that all this I have went through will make me a better person all the way around.
I have an uphill battle, fighting the devil addiction and years of training and refusing to feel and many other things one thing I have always possessed is determination to succeed, a drive to never give up, never been a quitter, have had a hard time settling for less than what i set out to accomplish.
In recent times I had slacked and become a procrastonater. Any way I am going through major changes dealing with what I have learned to be major panic attacks, I remember when i first heard about them I was scepticle. WOW! was I sooo
wrong I thought I was dieng and they are stilling coming and going, Those things suck. Any way if there is anything I can do for any of you, Especially after reading through my whining, Dont hesitate let me know! If you are a friend, It means alot to me I believe that friendship works two ways, I will be there for you, I pray that you dont take it as a weakness,Its not.
THANKS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!! From the bottom of my heart.