Sent to me by another Recovering Addict. hope you get what i did out of it. NA hugs, JJ Hi, and welcome to your trip. My name is _____ and I’ll be one of your guides. First of all, I want to thank you for asking me to join you in your journey. My own led me to question my sanity, the existence of god, hate the universe, everyone and everything in it and made me consider relapse and even suicide. I hope yours is as successful. Our destination is a place of happiness, joy and freedom called Serenity. It’s a place that doesn’t actually exist now because it gets created by each recovering addict as they travel down the road to recovery. That means not only do we not know what it’s going to look like but there’s no map either because the territory we have to cross to get there is the deepest, darkest parts of you. Places nobody has ever been before and no one in their right mind would want to go which makes you the perfect person to make You probably didn’t volunteer for this and may actually have thought you were on your way somewhere else but if you ended up here there’s really only one way out – through the highest and lowest areas of your body, mind and spirit. A lot of people like to engage in various forms of whining, sniveling and other expressions of wretched self-pity when they find this out. Feel free. It’s a complete waste of time but I can wait while you get it out of your system. It’s better to do it now so it won’t dilute the confusion I’m a guide not a porter which means for the hardest parts of your journey, you’ll be on your own. Hopefully by then you will have developed some conscious contact with a Higher Power (HP) because, without the endless supply of spiritual energy your HP will provide, you won’t make it. The way will be littered with the remains of those who try to make it across the slippery, narrow trails over which you will pass without the spiritual balance provided by an HP. These will either be empty husks that used to contain Zombies tell you things you want to hear so you’ll keep listening. They’re not actually interested in helping you on your way. Having their heads up their butt’s means they have a dark, sh*tty point of view and all they can see is themselves. The best guides make you feel like you are sitting quietly beside a deep pool of calm water when you come near them but they say things like ‘Keep It Simple’ that will confuse you utterly at first. Sometimes all that is left of your predecessors is a weird, chilly vibe that makes you want to look behind you. Sometimes there is just a shadow. A memory of a memory. Many recovering addicts start their journey off with great fanfare by cheering throngs only to disappear without a trace. They started with pure intentions but were lured off the path by money, sex, fame, power or social standing. These are only some of the many distractions that can lead you off the trail. It will take more courage and determination than you knew you had to stay on your path. Along the way you may get angry with me, blame me for some horrible thing I said or did (or, if you’re really desperate to take the focus off yourself and/or find an excuse to quit/relapse, something I didn’t do/say). I felt the same way about my guides. Usually, the ones I was the angriest with were only showing me my most important truths. While you are an interesting and beautiful person We both know what a chicken sh*t you really are and know you would never consider making the trip unless others had gone before you. I was the same way. Even the first N.A. voyagers had the example of the A.A.’s to light their way. I can only marvel at (and thank HP for) those who blazed the first recovery trails. I’ve only made it this far because those who came before me held up I hope your journey is successful. ( Author unknown to me… passing it on in the spirit of the fellowship. ) |
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Thanks for sharing. A good read, and I'll probably need to read it again from time to time.
Thanks, I guess we are all guides in one way or the other. I really hope we all make our recovery work and NOT be lured back into LIfe's dark places, BUT actually rise by finding our true strength, which is INSIDE of all of us. Best wishes, we will make it
This was amazingly accurate…