I was doing so good what happened!? I guess I just need some venting I am a stay at home mom 5, 4, and a 2 yr old. Now my oldest 2 are actually my stepchildren and we take turns with the mother we keep them one week she keeps them one week and their mother is an infuriating idiot! She is constantly implying that it won't be this way forever and she will have her kids full time now me coming from a seperate household and not getting along at all with my own stepmother have been what I wanted from her I have been in their lives since they were 1 and newborn and consider them and love them like my own. I am so worried about what's going to happen with them. On top of that over the last 3 years my husbands mom died unexpectedly and more recently his 21 yr old sister was killed in a car accident and the last 4 years my husband has been unsuccessful in getting a job and we literally make no money. As a “solution” last year my grandma was extremely ill and needed to either sell everything she owned to be in a nursing home or we move in and i become her caregiver. This was the worst idea known to man she is absolutely a psychological abuser and loves to use guilt trips and manipulation to get what she wants. Now I have everyday meds panic attacks on a reg basis and feel so useless. But I'm stuck in this situation and everyday I become more depressed and feel like its never going to get better. So I turned to God at first it was helping so much but from the ages of 8 and 18 (thanks to stepmom) living in a tiny town in Utah I was mormon. Now I realized it wasn't the right religion for me but as I am reading the bible and doing some research on mormonism I have realized I was in a cult and brainwashed now I'm so freaked out about religion in general and being sucked into being another ignorant sheep. So sorry for the long post but I needed to get this all out thanks for listening