So I don't know where to go with my boyfriend right now. I'm at a crossroads in life, and this is usually the time when I say good bye to the guy in my life because we're just not working out. Usually it's because we're really just not working out. But me and my boyfriend, after 2 years, are actually still working out. This is a major thing for me. But I feel myself slipping. In my personal life I am slipping in school and in keeping my house clean and in my overall motivation for life. So he has to be noticing this. He's not saying anything about it and it doesn't seem like he has a problem with me, but I dunno. I want him to want to have a house with me and my son. I want him to step in and want to be a family. He is good with my son, but he's not my son's father figure. And I think my son wants that. And I want that. But then I think do I really want that? I think I do. He is living with his parents at the moment while he is looking for a house, and he is looking for a house for just him because he says he just wants a house for "just him for now". He's 36 years old!!! We obviously missed the baby boat. (We've had that conversation) He says if it happens it happens. But he feels too old to have a baby. So that right there tells me he doesn't want one. If he's not yearning for one then I'm not either. Anyway, the house – so I am also in the market for a house. And after two years of a really good relationship I just want a damn house with him and he's not ready for it. When I look at it that way it doesn't sound so bad. But I love him and I want him to want to have a house with me. I want him to love my son.That's all. If you got this far, thanks for reading.