I saw my counselor on the 12th and I think I made a little progress. I go back on the 26th which is progress in and of itself. Normally, after I leave I don't call back to schedule a new appointment but this time, I was honest with her and said that I put things off and sometimes I avoid doing something for so long that it's either then too late to do it or feels like it is. So we scheduled an appointment before I left. Got a long way to go, though…

I'm a little stressed right now. I have class at 11:00 and I don't really want to go. I'm hungry and I'm tired. Now, I could skip…other kids skipped the last lab…but I'm nervous. All we're doing today is finishing up presentations and I already did mine. I volunteered so that I could get it over with while one of the snobby girls was MIA. >.> After that, we're going to begin working on our group projects and at least one of the guys in my group is a slacker. It won't kill this guy and one other guy to start working without me. It's not that I'm trying to avoid the work, the work is fine. I just don't think that this is something they absolutely cannot start without me present.

On the other hand, I worry that one or both of them will skip also and then nothing will get done. But damn, I'm not their Mom, I can't do the work to cover for them. If they intend to skip to avoid doing the work, we've already got a problem anyways. I'm not contemplating skipping to avoid the work, I just really don't want to go. =/ I wish I could talk it over with my boyfriend but he never seems to have his phone now. I should have the damn thing surgically embedded in his skin…

How many other kids sit and obsess over this sort of thing? Do other people just say, "Okay, I'm not going…" and that's it? Is it a big deal to miss this? I don't like feeling this anxious, why can't my boyfriend just answer his phone and tell me if it's okay. 🙁