Well I've never written a blog in here so this is my first time but yeah, lately life's been really boring. I was fired from my job a little over 5 months ago and still jobless and clueless about many things. I'm a little unsure what to do with my life at this point in time. I met two girls that became really close to me in the summer they were like my best friends in no time I felt really comfortable around them mostly with one though but that one girl I feel like she's very popular and out there and more than anything I think she's awesome and cool and a great person but the problem is the other girl that used to hang out with us. She is also jobless like myself but mostly because she wants to, she usually told me she didn't want to get married or get a job or do anything really, her parents get her everything she wants and needs and she brags about it quite a lot. I knew she had gone through some bad things in her life so I was trying to help her for a while but she was also very anxious and angry person, it got to the point where she'd get angry at random people for no reason like at restaurants and parties or even the parking lot. She got angry at policemen and just people in general and she was always fighting people, so one day she got really angry at me I can't even remember why we fought this was like 2 weeks ago but I got upset and I never get upset or angry for real but this girl was also fighting the other girl that hung out with us now. The other girl is sweet and gentle and a really nice person so I was like wth why are you fighting with her now? I told her she had some problems and needed to talk to someone or something and she got so upset she doesn't talk to me anymore. She was annoying though started saying things about my family then about my mom having cancer and started fighting over stupid things on facebook she thought I was like attacking her for no reason while I was trying to discuss smething else and completely unrelated to the private chat we were having. So we stopped talking and I had gotten used to hanging out with them and being with them mostly the other girl I like but I think she thinks that I'm not "popular" enough or cool enough or whatever that angry girl is always putting up this barrier like she tries to look cool and awesome to people, but I'm not like that and I think that's why the other girl liked her, she was too bitchy forme though and a week ago I went outside of town to visit my bf all the fight online happened while I was away, then when I was comming back the other girl asked me if I had made up with that chick. I'll just say her names cause this is kinda confussing so Andrea asked me if I had made up with C and I was like nah she even took me out of her friend list, but while I was away it was andrea's birthday and she said C didn't go to her party or whatever I was like wow that's rude. But right now I kind of miss going out or seeing them, having someone to talk to and realizing I'm alone in this city, as well as jobless and have nobody to talk to. I was seriously considering moving out of town for a while because the situation in my house with my mom being sick and all got very frustrating and my dad is always in a terrible mood. They've been pressuring me to find a job and eventhough I got something I honestly don't want to work there, the pay is good but the job is something I hate and how can I work well and stay at a place if I don't like those things. I had first applied to that place because the job was something different, I went to a lot of interviews and after the 4th they ditched me and said they'd call back but never did. Then I assume they lost someone on this past week cause they called me for a different job with one of their companies but it's not what I applied for, and this job starts next monday but I honestly don't feel capable of doing that again, I say again cause I used to do that before and I hated it, I know I should give this place the benefit of the doubt cause I've never been there but I haven't gotten any confirmation either they called yesterday and asked me for an interview the same day a few hours later and I didn't feel prepared at all. Ever since I came back though I've also been feeling dizzy and unwell in general very tired very easily things like that I'm even wondering if there's something wrong with me now. I guess I just wanted to put it out there cause despite the good weather and all been having a hard time mostly economically speaking and now even with friends. So yeah…