People without ocd seriously get on my nerves at times. I TRY to understand that they just don't have ocd so they just lack understanding of it. They make fun or jokes about ocd. Like it's funny at all… Every ex I've ever had has lacked understanding in it and we end up arguing over something so stupid. Every time something major happens in my family I'm like the "ugly duckling" or "black sheep" that jsut stands out cuz I'm different. I handle things differently. I get angry too quickly. I take things too seriously. I isolate myself from others when I need space. I need more space than others. I've always been socialable and capable of making friends. My family does adore me. But it's SOOO frustrating when I have to do things a cetain way. Sometimes I feel selfish… For example, my sister who I rarely see since she joined the military flew in for a week. Well she has always taken good care of me and been fairly selfless when it comes to opening up with arms to my needs in life like a car or tv. HOwever… She needed to borrow catching equipment (softball) from me since she joined a team. She wanted to borrow it in order to save like 300 dollars on new equipment. As a loving sister and a good Christian, I SHOULD easily give her my gear to borrow. Give her the shirt off my back if needed. But my ocd was TOTALLY against it. It was telling me all these lies that would or could possibly happen if she were to borrow it. I felt like if I did the right thing that it would put me in a slight depression state in life. So I told her no ;'(. It broke my heart. Cuz I wanted to lend her the gear. I wanted to be a good person. I wanted what my ocd told me I couldn't have. I am so sad that I couldn't do it. I feel like a jerk like scum. I wish I could give her the gear. It's just a possession, an object, a material. It will honestly do nothing, yet ocd makes me feel like it would've. I feel disappointed in myself. And quite frankly, a little scared of what if a life-threatening situation ever happens will my ocd be able to control my actions then as well?!?. I hope not. I hope I never have to find out.
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Visual Detail in OCD
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Scammed/Broken
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Invicibility via Jameson
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For as long as I can remember I have had some small compulsive tendencies, but I never thought I...
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I laugh but it isn't fuuny
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Male Anorexia: The Fear of Food
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I suffer from male anorexia. The idea of eating too much, eating the wrong foods, and the fear of weight...
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My Struggle
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Logical thoughts, OCD style
coffeedad, , OCD, Anger, OCD, Relationships, 5
It's like taking what starts as a purely logical thought and running it through the blender on the pulverize...
Yeah, some people think ocd is no big deal. Bleh. Anyway, you have to beat your ocd by doing the opposite of what it wants. My anxiety gets out of control when I try to fight the ocd, but that's the only way to get better.
You should just call her up and give her the gear now. You will feel triumphant if you do, and then that way you both benefit. You stand up to OCD and she gets to save some money!
rainingoctober.. I did just text her and told her I will send it. But it is so hard to get my retarded thoughts of something happening if I give it to her to stop. I logically know that all that will happen is that she will borrow the gear. But my ocd tells me lies.. How do I get them to subside. It's super hard to just let it go. I desperately want to just be the person I WANT to be. I'm sick of ocd telling me who I am… </3. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Sending it will be slapping OCD in the face, so that is awesome! Sometimes you have to let the thoughts happen, and then pass, without compulsing or doing anything to fix yourself. Then the anxiety subsides little by little.