Im not sure why but I seem to have panic attacks almost daily, it really doesnt make any sense but I see it as a sign of something amiss no doubt……I never used to have them …I live in a place where people are always like throwing up peace signs…its not really a work environment in fact Im not sure if anyone works around here yet they try and show they are cool by flashing 2 finger signs…kinda ghetto from what I was used to when I was an electrician… Id like to go back to working but not sure I could get a med clearence…just one of those things I guess…makes me feel like a bum though and instead of just settling in and figuring Im screwed I have panic attacks like I should be doing this or that…..when in the end its irelavent (sp) I know thats not true because when I worked I guarded my credit like a hawk and kept my rep as an electrician strong constantly going to classes to keep updated on OSHA and changes in electrical code…..Now I feel like Ive been put in my place after working so many years thrust into an environment of people who have lived this way all their life and dont know any better or how it could possibly be better…Im becoming one of them due to my disease……Its been hard not to pull the trigger especially in the middle of the nite when i panic…..I know others are worse off but while I look healthy I know Im not I know what this illness has done to my self esteem my mind and physical body…Im no fool and can see the forest through the trwees….knowing what to do about it now thats an entirely different story…dave
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Disclosure, My Thoughts
MadMountainMike, , HIV or Aids, Questions, Relationships, 0
Originally I intended to convey these thoughts as a response to another blog entry; however, when I tried to...
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Dentist
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Not sure how many of you go and how often to the dentist but I was in a study...
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Help – Feeling lost
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Ahhh… The New Year…. resolutions or no?
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My Story Concerning Healthcare
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This past April I was plagued by night sweats and night time fever for almost a week. I had...
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True Health is in the State of Mind
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To medicate or not to medicate, that is indeed the question. What games through yonder corporations played. What research...
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Inspiration
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He placed one scoop of clay upon another until a form lay lifeliess on the ground… All were...
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Tribulation
rick3095, , HIV or Aids, Religion, 0
In the world ye shall have tribulation." John 16:33 Art thou asking the reason of this, believer? Look...