Ok so those here who know me and have followed my ups and downs throughout the last 6-7 years have seen me at my lowest and since Ive finally opened my eyes up and realized that yeaa….the sky aint fallin, I stopped feeling sorry for my self and just said ahhh fuggit and started living again. I figured aint no sense in being a downer….I waas always the life of the party, the guy that took chances in life, whether it be surfing or at work as a electrician…I was never scared of squat. So when I laay in the hospital with the ivs hooked up and my body was all twacked out lookin like a freakin anorexic I figurred well Im jacked now so I gave up. went home and waited to die.. I even tried to starve myself and stopped taking meds.. Then after 5 days of not eating my body which was already weak went into convulsions. I was rushed to the hospital and then stabilized by some phillipino doc who was an ahole. Then I started to get pissed off and figured I would just accept it and sit on disability. So thats what I did for 4 years , then a couple years ago I started writing, on the advice of a VA doc. So….I ended up writing my autobiography and it was published on Amazon. Then I wrote another book called "The Sunshine Murders" then published that. The I tried to get publicity and got an interview on The Authors Show, which is the biggest internet radio show for new authors in the US. So yea, lifes weird but if I got no purpose in life, I dont want to be here. bottom line. So maybe that was my purpose, to write and exercise aand get healthy again. So now my tcells ar at 800…undetectable and my bp is 110 over 70….Ive been walking 5 miles a day for a year now and I guess Im doing better. Butt…I dont trust people much….not at all…..people see me and think yea….surf dude…even now and Im almost 50. They dont know Ive been a Marine for 6 years, a Navy dude for 3 years and an ellectrician for 13 years,,,,they just see me…some dude…then they hit me up for a smoke or a buck. so yea I guess I look approachable….like "hey dude whats up" But I am so much deeper than that…call it wisdom or whatever but Ive definitely changed…not sure if for the better but Ive changed. My book "My life, a life story of a man infected" has an Audible.com rating of 4 and 5 stars and is now selling a few audio books a day. Barnes and Noble and Amazon Kindle and Itunes sales are trickling in but rising. So who knows probly wont get rich but when Im gone itll still be out there for my son to read when he comes of age. Just a small contribution from a dude living with Aids…maybe it matters,,maybe it dont soooo….ahhhhh whatever. Dave
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