I’ve never loved someone- I’ve never been in love before. I’ve written about it in great length in my stories. Two people who fall in love and want to defy fate to stay together. To love someone so fully and deeply with every broken part of yourself. I sometimes wonder how capable I am of loving someone. Trusting someone is going to be the biggest step for me. I’ve only known relationships where I’m being manipulated and eventually abandoned one way or another. Loneliness has creeped its way inside of me. Despite being adapted to being an independent person, I am lonely. So much has changed in my life in such a rapid current that I am just getting my footing. I’m estranged from even more relatives than before. I don’t have a friend circle so it’s usually just me. I am glad things are normal for me but normalcy doesn’t erase years worth of damage to me. This isn’t me victimizing my self I’m just being realistic that I have a past. I’ve spent too many years around people who have used my vulnerabilities against me. Who have used my most painful experiences as some joke. Right now I’m just wondering.
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it’s maddening
The Bluejay, , Uncategorized, Depression, 2
idk what to do anymore. i really really really don’t understand what’s going on in my head and everything...
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The weird connection between two or three people
Littlewing, , Addiction, Anxiety, Marriage & Family, Uncategorized, Addiction, Career, Child, Relationships, Weight Loss, 0
So right now im currently alone, I’m alone when I go to bed, I’m alone when I go to...
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Mom isn’t really gone….
Iris.Dar, , Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, LGBT, Teens, Uncategorized, 2
I realized lately that I am always carrying Mom around with me, up there in my brain… Remembering simple...
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Here. Why
Isabella1D1W, , Uncategorized, Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, Stress, Therapist, 0
I come here regularly when I have internet. I don’t know why I come here. My life isn’t terrible....
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Had to run, the smoke was killing me
BeccaSweet, , Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, Marriage & Family, Teens, Uncategorized, 1
I was in Oregon and Nor Cal living and working. Doing ok, no seizures, just working, living and having...
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2 points.
AloneForever, , Uncategorized, Sleep Disorders, 0
UK business, profit, and the arts culture. If there were more jobs advertised to jobseekers, who previously claimed benefits,...
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You’ve only got one
Sarina_Luna94, , Uncategorized, Depression, Domestic Abuse, PTSD, Relationships, Self Esteem, Therapist, 0
Since I stopped speaking to my sister or at least limiting contact, my dad keeps remind me I only...
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Telling you guys a bit about myself
pumpkinpie123, , Uncategorized, Anxiety, Depression, Domestic Abuse, Emotional Abuse, OCD, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, 0
I’m 13 i have three younger siblings and both mother and father we own a dairy farm and tons...