i started school recently on line and that took me away from thee site for a whilee trying to reaclimate and to geet used to a new system. i used controll as a coping methode for years to handl emy anxiety talked my self into everything beeing better as long as i am prepaired as long as i triplee checked my bag before i leave as long as eveerything eevrey morning beforee i leave eis thee same from when i get up till i walk out the door. i had to geet controll of the new system the new rules and regulatons and becuase of that lack of a system a schedule i have been more down more sad and more anxiety riden i finaly am settling in and am doing a little better each day.