I honestly feel like crap, an everyone expect me to always be happy, supportive and strong person. I just can’t do that all time an I am so tired of getting misunderstood cause I can’t control the panic I feel. The anxiety I feel, the pressure in my head, the pounding in my heart. Sometimes my own heart beat is louder then my thoughts. I feel like I am going crazy just trying be normal an hide the fact I am in so much pain. It kills me to always be positive when I am not!! I just want to be understood not feel like mental case when I explain, I get numb sometimes, I get dizzy when I overthink, I need reassurance an yess I can give to myself but I want to be able to talk without feeling argument is going happen. I wanna be happy an enjoy everyone company without feeling I’m responsible for their feelings. I want to be free!! Honestly I want to be a bird if that makes sense an just fly with no destination, no responsibilities, no one to worry about but me. I just feel like I wish someone is their for me the way I am for others. I wish I was understood, I wish I didn’t feel so emotionally at times. I wish to be able to learn how to deal with this much pain. I just wish
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When words fail…
NoClueNBlonde, , Anxiety, Depression, OCD, 0
https://www.smule.com/p/265033366_3341927420 I sing. Not the best, but I sing what’s inside me
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Feeling Sick
soullessbvblover, , Anxiety, Anxiety, Medication, Obesity, Sleep Disorders, Stress, 2
So…I didn't post an entry last night,sorry but I was just wiped and not feeling well and just…ugh… Here's...
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It’s now or never
nellafantasia, , Anxiety, Medication, Therapist, 0
They tell you things get better as you get older, but that’s not true. You hope, and believe, that...
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I Am A Bad Microcelebrity
ThePinkestBat, , Anxiety, Domestic Abuse, Questions, Self Esteem, 0
"You're ugly" my internal monologue tells me hundreds of times a day. "You're stupid." "You're bad." I try to...
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Bad Night…
soullessbvblover, , Anxiety, Anxiety, Chronic Pain, Questions, 2
Alright…So last night (after funeral) went really bad. For two reasons: One- Ulcers/acid reflex. It\'s been bugging my constantly...
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trying to get better mentally and physically! so heres my story summed up (:
schlatty, , Anxiety, Depression, LGBT, Teens, Anger, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Eating Disorder, PTSD, Sex Therapy, Suicide, Therapist, Therapy, 0
— before i get into anything, this may contain topics that are triggering/sensitive to some! —- tw: sexual assault,...
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i feel unlucky..
x.aauroraa.xx, , Anxiety, Depression, Relationships, 1
I always feel super lonely while I’m surrounded by friends but do they actually like me or pretend to...