Hi, I’m 20 years old and I’m currently attending university in Philadelphia. I don’t know how start any of this, or how to articulate it correctly but I just need to know other people go through this. I’ve never had enough courage to tell anyone that I feel this way every day of my life, or maybe it’s because I can’t swallow my pride. Every day I walk to class terrified of quite literally nothing. Every person I look at feels like a threat and my anxiety shoots through the roof. I could be in class simply learning what I like to learn about and it will creep up on me, it’s taken any of the joy I did have right out of my life. I want to sleep all the time, I just don’t want to be apart of the world. I’ve had sleep issues since my sophomore year of high school because of it. I take Ambien because of it but not even that works. I feel like I’m losing my mind because I can never force myself to sleep artificially, or naturally. I don’t want to use this word lightly but it feels like I’m being crippled by not being able to sleep. I’m just at my wits end because all I hear are stories of how people go through things like this and come out the other side fixed and put back together. I’ve tried blogs like this before but have never gotten a response. I just need to know that someone else somewhere can understand this. Thank you for your time.