I’m to the point where feeling hopeless about myself. I mean group therapy is great it helps with the situation in the moment, but I’m having trouble using it. I’ve had problems with going out having a social life which means I don’t go out. Only with family I live with or with distant family. I don’t have no “real” friends, dealing with my loss of my dad put me thru such a depressed years I just stopped living life. I’ve been stuck since. I’ve tried to get jobs but haven’t actually stayed for longer than 1 month, which doesn’t look good on a resume. I need to grow the fuck up but the more that I try to change which change is not bad, I understand that but making it a habit and keeping it makes me feel annoyed and hopeless of myself. I just wanna feel confident in myself again. 😪💔
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I took care of my mom who had vascular dementia from 2013 to 2015. She died 2015. I was numb and started drinking and isolating. Just disappeared from society. Quit my job. Stayed home with kids. Hid. Grief kicked my ass. Didn’t deal with it or process it. I developed social anxiety. Anytime I tried to conquer it I had panic attacks. That lasted six years. Until one day I was sick of all of it. I put myself in intensive outpatient for alcohol to be around people and talk about my grief. I applied for a job. Worked at it five days and had a panic attack the fifth day and walked out; told them I wasn’t ready apparently. But one month later I got a call for another job and tried again. I have been at that job for almost two years now. I overcame my social anxiety for the most part. I still struggle with anxiety some. I still have to work on making sure I am listening to what I am telling myself if it is positive or negative. But I remind myself that every day is a new day to start over.
Hi Thank you so much! If I may ask has it been years since you put yourself out there? I mean before when you were just getting out there. If so how or what words or physical/mental sayings or what did you do to keep going forward? I’m asking because I put myself out there but I either get to overwhelmed or get a panic attack and start crying uncontrollably (Hopefully I explained it well that you can understand)
I’m sorry you’re feeling hopeless. I’m in a similar situation at the moment where, I have friends, but most of the time nobody goes out of their way for me. It feels like I’m out of the way for them. I have a quote for you, but I won’t give it unless you want to hear it. I just know, it is hard to change without the support. At least that’s how I’ve felt. Try to stay strong.