Dear younger me

I AM SORRY. I HAVE LET YOU DOWN DRASTICALLY. IM TRYING TO BE BETTER. WE HAD SUCH A PROMISING FUTURE. I AM NOT SURE WHERE IT ALL WENT WRONG. IM TRYING MY BEST TO FIND MYSELF AGAIN. IM SORRY THAT OLDER YOU TURNTH OUT TO B A BUM. WAS IT THE FIRST RAPE OR THE FIRST TIME WE GOT MOLESTED. WAS IT GROWING UP FEELING LIKE A TRASH BABY GOT US TRYING TO HELP PPL LEFT AND RIGHT THAT DONT APPRECIATE US. WAS IT WHEN THE WOMAN THAT SUPPOSEDLY BIRTH US BEAT US WITH A WOODEN BASEBALL BAT WHILE WE WERE SLEEPING. MAYBE THATS WHEN WE DIED AND LOST OURSELVES. WAS IT ALL THE HOSPITALIZATIONS NIGGAS SENT US. WE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE GREAT. I AM SORRY WE BROKEN. IM SORRY WE NOT CAPABLE OF GETTING LOVE. IM SORRY I TURNTH US INTO A FAILURE. IM SORRY THAT WE DONT FEEL LOVED. MAYBE IN ANOTHER LIFE WE WILL BE GREAT. WE WILL STAY THE COURSE AND BE HAPPY AND SUCESSFUL AND ABLE TO BE LOVED