Letter to my addiction
I’m sure you’ve been wondering why you haven’t heard from me in a while, and when you would see me again. Well you won’t. I’m leaving you. This time it is for good. I’m tired of the abuse, the neglect, and all the lies you feed me. You’ve taken everyone and everything that has ever meant anything to me away. You’ve left no one un harmed. You blinded me from my reality so I never saw my part in creating it. I was able to play the victim. It was much easier to hide behind than anger. I didn’t have to put much effort into it and I rather liked the attention it gave me too.
I should have left you and your illusions a long time ago but I was afraid of being alone. I’m beginning to see the hole I’ve dug for myself. If I stayed with you, this hole would get deeper and deeper. Eventually I would never see daylight again. This hole would become my grave.
Without you, I can begin to fill in this hole and then put in a new foundation I can begin to build on. I don’t know what I’ll be building but I’ll find out as I go along. Whatever I build, I’m sure I’ll like the results.
Just know, that if you ever try to come back into my life, you will fail. You will never be given the chance to take anything from me again.
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