Hello. I thought that I would share a little bit about my life. I lost my parents at a young age. My mother died after I turned 18 and my Father passed away January 2014 before my 29th birthday. I’ve been struggling with depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. It’s hard going through adulthood without them and my friends have yet to know how I feel. I do my best to get through everyday and trust me it’s hard but I’ve been told that you can’t tell that I’m struggling with anything and that I’m the strongest person they know. I hope that on this site I can help at least one person because I know what it’s like to have people turn their back on you when you need them the most. It’s heart renching. If anyone wants to even just talk I will listen and be a friend because this world is a lonely place even when your in a room full of people. I just want to inspire someone because I never gave up even when I wanted to. I  know that life is meant to be lived and I’m doing my best. And if I can help anyone then I will feel amazing that I did something for someone on a different level then the people in my life. Thank you for reading and I hope this has helped you or you even just want to get to know me thats fine too. I miss my parents everyday and that pain is something that will never go away it just gets easier to talk about. I know that I’m not the only one out there that has lost someone, but my friends don’t know how it feels and I know thats not their fault. I just hope that there are some people here that can relate. Thank you for reading.

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  1. cindyivy 4 years ago

    Hi! I found this site searching for some light of hope too. I’m so sorry for your loss, I lost my dad, I know the pain of losing someone you love so much, I can’t even imagine losing both of them.

    I’ve suffered from social anxiety and sometimes depression since forever ago so it’s not easy to see myself getting out of this hole. My father died when I was 22 from cancer and I just moved from my home to the other side of the world (Australia) to live with my partner… leaving my mom and my beautiful dog behind (my little family). Since then my anxiety it’s getting worse. I get so lonely, I only have one real friend who I trust and she’s in the US and I can’t seem to make friends anymore, and it’s way worse when it’s difficult to speak english fluently because my anxiety/insecurities makes my mind blank, I just gave up hope on that.

    I try to explain everyone why I struggle and how I feel and they all think is something normal everyone experience in their life, that I need to wake up and stop the craziness. I can’t go out, I feel safe in my house, I’m afraid of people talking to me, I freeze with phone calls, I can’t even think of public transportation, and so many things that I feel my life passing by and can’t seem the way to make any move. I want to search for professional help but I’m even scared of that.I’m stuck, with no one to talk to, because my partner is very compassionate but there are times that is too much for him and he doesn’t know what to do so we end up fighting…. I’m afraid to lose him in the future, I’m so lucky to have him in my life. I know what you mean when you say that this world is a lonely place, I feel so much empathy, compassion and try to be considerate to everyone but must of the time I end being hurt and I lose hope.

    I hope I don’t scare you with this, I’m actually a really friendly trustworthy person, maybe awkward but I try my best not to make anyone uncomfortable I’m just searching for some help and wanted to see if there are people just like me, struggling or that somehow they’ve found a way to get out so I don’t feel so alone. Thank you for sharing a little about you and for being so nice to care. You make the world a better place.

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      jade818 4 years ago

      I’m so sorry about your loss. I know how you feel with not having many friends and just freezing in situations. I wish I knew how I could help. And you don’t scare me with anything you said. I think we all have fears and it’s hard to talk about. I just hope I can help at least one person in my life.

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      • cindyivy 4 years ago

        Don’t worry, It sounds more tragic than it is, I was not feeling so good yesterday. It’s something that I’ve been living since forever, so it’s pretty normal to me already. I live with my anxiety but I still have a happy life most of the time with what I have. I’m just searching for options to get better and people to talk to. I was just venting my feelings I guess lol Sorry about that. I hope you’re doing good 🙂

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    jade818 4 years ago

    Ok. I’m doing ok I guess
    Just kind of down

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