I woke up sick this morning, It sucks, my love has been soo great. He's fetched me things and tried to cheer me up it didn't work but he tried. THough he does try to kiss me which …. mess with my head. I <3 him though so I deal and just remind him that i"m sick so he can't kiss me. It works for a while then he forgets and trries again. My hand sanitizer isn't doing the trick any more, it used to make me feel better but now it only gives me seconds not the minutes It used to and its worse when I'm sick. I don't want to touch anything thats not mine or that someone else Might touch. I fight the urge to wash my hands every time I touch my face or scratch my arm or any time its been more than five minutes since the last time I watshed my hands.

To make it worse I skipped my meds today, depression got to me and my mind told me, whats the use. Tomorrows going to be hellish because of it. The depression got to me because I still haven't recieved a call on a job yet and I absolutly hate being out of work. It drives me stir crazy not having productive things to do, to get closer to the few goals I have in life. But my goals are for another time, and another entry. Just figured i'd tell you about my day because talking to you guys gets me through, reminds me I'm not alone in this fight. That there are others who understand how my mind works.

See you tomorrow Guys,

PS… Hope that all is going well for you guys, I'll be checking your guys blogs tonight. is there any way to subscribe to blogs so I know when you post? let me know