So I spent the morning shopping for blouses because already it's getting hot here during the days. Because of the weight gain from the Abilify (ARRGGGHHH!!!) I cannot fit into my normal clothes. But I did find some nice ones that I liked and bought.

I tried to keep busy today ~ doing laundry, blogging, visiting other websites, journaling and of course, taking a nap. I sadly didn't go on a bike ride today; I was hoping Aaron and I could go this evening but too much was going on for me to go and he didn't want to. So tomorrow morning after Zach gets on the bus I'm going to go for an early morning ride before it gets truly hot.

My appointment went well I guess. I didn't end up in the hospital, which is a good thing. He considered it though ~ but I convinced him I was better off at home with my family to get me through this period of depression and desire for self-harm.I haven't caved in to it yet this time and I'm determined not to.

He ended up choosing to put me on Ritalin to try to pull me out of the depressive spiral. I start taking it tomorrow twice a day and see how it goes.Has anyone else been on Ritalin for depression?The big concern is that it may make my anxiety really bad. I'm hoping and praying that's not the case. If I stay busy though it helps with bringing the anxiety level down. I just have to find stuff to do.

That's all for tonight. Thank you to everyone who commented on this morning's blog in support… I really appreciate it! I wish you all a great evening and good sleep. (((HUGS)))