A long time ago I used to hate myself and everything around me. I always thought that the world would have been better off without me.
I’m past that, now.
I’ve realized recently that the world would suck without me. This isn’t trying to sound like I’m selfish (although I know it’s coming off like it), but really, I embrace being different instead of hating myself for it.
Back then, when people would make fun of me, I would take it seriously and get upset over it. Now, whenever anyone calls me “gay” or “emo”, I’m like, “Dude, you can call me anything you want, but that’s just your opinion and your opinion doesn’t affect me.”
People have tried to label me as “gay” because I am not looking for a girlfriend yet. It also has to do with the fact that it doesn’t bother me if someone’s homosexual. Someone could exclaim, “You know that person’s gay.”, and I’d be like, “So?” Of course, as I’ve said they immediately conclude that I’m “gay” because I think that way.
Look, I know we live in a sex-craved world, but is it that big of a deal that someone actually wants to WAIT until they get married before having sex? After all, that’s what my religion tells me to do and damn it that’s what I’m gonna do, no matter if some sex-obsessed person thinks there’s something wrong with me for waiting.
Anyway, back on subject, there are a few things that have made me have this change of heart. First off, I enjoy trying to help people with their problems. I’ll listen to them and try to talk things through.
Second, I am a 10-time blood donor, and my blood is a rare type (AB Negative and CMV-Negative). Plus I donate every two months.
Lastly, I don’t really care what people think of me. I get tired of people complaining about the way they look or what people will think of them, and I’m just like, “You know, screw everyone else’s opinion and just be yourself.”
Anyway, I’m sure I came out sounding like a selfish smartass in this post, but if you feel like the world is better off without you, stop and think about how many people you affect every day. It really is an eye-opener.
If you need some advice, let me know.