So I had a rough couple days the past few days.  I'm just overly anxious and agitated lately anyways so that doesn't help.

Still moving stuff into my new appartment/putting stuff away so that has caused me stress.  I think I spent 3 hours last night washing/drying and putting away dishes/pots/pans, etc.  Still not sure what Im doing with my cutlery as the drawer in the kitchen is nasty and it doesn't fit in the cupboards.

Going to see my doctor (GP) tomorrow, and telling her that I don't want to see the psychiatrist there any more, and asking if she'll just provide me with medication.  Then I'm going to look for a psychologist/behavioural therapist to help me, since the psychiatrist was doing shit all and I have come to hate her.  She just made me feel stupid and belittled me.  I might be younger and a univeristy student, but I have almost enough courses for a psych minor, and I consider myself fairly educated when it comes to my OCD.

I also hate the fact about what she did with my meds.  Telling me we'd start something new after Christmas, then on that day, telling me we have to go through 4 weeks of lowering my dosage before I can get new medication.  Well eff that.  I quit cold turkey before I saw her that week, and although I have been agitated and more irritable, I feel that it is more from SSRI Discontinuation than that the Zoloft was actually helping me somewhat.

  So my doctor can put me on Cipralex to try, or something else if she has a better suggestion which I'm sure she might, and then I'll have to go about finding myself a therapist.  The only thing is I have no clue who to get as I do not know anyone in my area with a similar problem, or anybody that goes to a psychologst.

hmm