I would have never imagined myself being the position that I am in. Having thoughts that I do, the emotions that I do. Living life everyday the way i have as recently. I have so much going on inside me but i am afraid. I am afraid that no one would understand, and ultimately that no one would care. I have amazing people in my life, but I am constantly tormented by my mind because I feel like they don’t care. It feels as though everything and everyone is moving faster than the speed of light, and I am just praying that it all would slow down so I can express myself. So that I can feel like I matter, so I can feel real. I am present for everyone else that is important in my life, why I am having difficulty feeling the same? Why do I feel like my challenges are insignificant compared to the challenges of others? Why do have such little value for myself? I wish had someone to help realize that I am not crazy and that I what I am dealing with matters. I wish there was someone out there that can see me, because I feel invisible everyday.
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Hey just letting you know I feel the same way sometimes. Sometimes is what people want to hear but it isn’t true its actually every day. You are not alone. Know that I’m thinking about you and praying for you. Remember this even if you don’t love you and no else does you feel like including God. I love you and whatever your going through you will make it through always because your not alone I saw you I noticed you and I can relate so closely to this. Take care of yourself for you but if not for you then for me okay.
I am so moved emotionally that it’s hard to put in words how much this means to me. Thank you so much for the words of encouragement. I love you as well and I am praying and wishing that your days are easier each time.
I feel this way sometimes too. Someone told me this: You are loved. You are not your thoughts and your feelings, they are fleeting you are so much more. When you share your heart and be vulnerable especially with people who love and care for you, you will grow. It takes courage and compassion for you. Personally I find having compassion for others easier than for myself. I hope we both find a way to be more loving towards ourselves. I wish you love and courage. Thanks for sharing, it’s beautiful to know Im not alone in how I feel. I related a lot to what you said.
I often try to remind myself that I am not my thoughts and that at times like this my brain is lying to me so to speak. I still struggle a lot with discerning that and it sucks. I thank you for this message though, it reminds me that everything will be okay. Take care and I wish you all of God’s best!