i tell myself that it’s ok not to be ok but is it really ok to not be ok but u still say u r fine i’m lost and i do not think i will ever be fond i’m mean it’s getting really hard to even just get out of bed like i just can’t move i feel like i’m drowning in my now darkness it’s as if i’m in a cage but i put myself in it cuz maybe i would not get hurt any more but thats not true so i ask myself every day why am i still in the cage is it cuz i just can’t leave no it’s cuz i’m still to scared cuz thats how i am i’m scared of every thing every night and day i wonder why i’m even still alive cuz i do not deserve but i still am but like why.
I hear you, it must be incredibly hard to have those feelings. Please remember you are not alone and have many people that are here for you. There are a myriad of resources available to help connect you with people that can help you with these feelings you are experiencing. Posting here on The Tribe was so brave. Please know you are loved and valued.