Over the past two weeks my anxiety has intensified to the point where it interferes with my life. One of the main things I have noticed is that it sucks the energy right out of me. I feel like I’m walking through clouds and can’t see straight. With the little bit of energy I have each day, I will attempt to go on here and work towards getting my feelings out. I had to go back into therapy because of the impact anxiety has had on my life.

I have experienced anxiety for pretty much all of my teen and adult life, but the physical symptoms were never this intense. I now experience dizziness, feeling light headed, feeling exhausted, overwhelmed, and having trouble falling asleep most nights. It comes in waves, of course, and some days are better than others – but for the most part it has begun seeping into most parts of my life. My family is supportive, but they don’t really understand how the physical symptoms affect my life. I wish I had someone to talk to about my anxiety who also has it.

I guess that is one of the reasons I joined this. To not feel like I’m alone or crazy. Most people just don’t get it. They think I have a good life and don’t understand why I’m feeling the way I do. I honestly don’t really understand it either. I’ve been able to keep it under control for most of my life, but I guess I can’t keep everything in anymore. I hate feeling like this, but even worse – I hate feeling alone in this. I hate pretending like I’m fine when my heart is racing and I’m terrified of having another panic attack or feeling dizzy or nauseous. That’s all I’ve got for now.