Feels like I’m dying inside
Slowly beginning to hide
My colors, my face, my scars
The only person I talk to is the stars
Don’t care anymore what people say
Too fucked up to care, anyway
And I know that I’m a big mess
So I guess you can have the rest
If you’re waiting for me like you say you are
Know that I’m not going to make it very far
Before I collapse onto the sand
So make sure you catch me, if you can
I know I’ve been swimming in this ocean for way too long
Thought I could do it but I guess I was wrong
Tried to escape but I started to drown
But then you caught me on my way down
And if you’re real and if you love me
Maybe this will give my lungs a chance to breathe
Before I fall in that ocean again
And you ask if we can just be friends.
This poem beautifully captures a deep sense of struggle and vulnerability. The imagery of swimming in an ocean, feeling lost and drowning, evokes powerful emotions. It speaks to the desire for connection amidst pain, highlighting the tension between isolation and the hope for support. The line about the stars adds a touch of melancholy yet suggests a search for understanding. It’s raw and honest, reflecting the complexity of relationships and the longing for someone to truly be there. The final lines leave a poignant question about the nature of love and friendship in the face of personal turmoil. Overall, it’s a heartfelt piece that resonates with anyone who has faced similar feelings.