I know im always writing about him its because I truly loved him. I hate starting all over to explain to you why I loved and how it didn’t work. Im tired of explaining. So i have been processing it all. He has set the bar high at the moment. His love was real I never had to question it. The safety he gave to me in the beginning was all I needed to fall in love. Sometimes I look back and wonder where we went wrong.

We have been apart for so long. I forget what it was like to wake up with him. I sometimes forget what his voice sounds like. Sometimes I have things I still want to tell him. I wonder from time to time does he think about me too? or is he with someone new to forget about me? I already hurt myself over and over trying to heal. I constantly wonder but I don’t want to know the answer.