So this is my first time writing about my anxiety for quite a while (I’m talking 8 years?). I’ve suffered from anxiety for as long as I can remember. I usually go through “seasons” of heightened anxiety, seek help then, and back off with the help when my anxiety gets better. Now, though, I know I need to do something long-term to keep these feelings at bay. The past few months, I’ve been feeling like I am in a dream, to point where I can have a panic attack because I think I am going to wake up. I’ve since learned that this symptom/issue is called derealization, which I’ve never had to deal with before. I am trying to learn what I can do to feel more focused and “present” instead of in my head all the time. I would love a community to be able to talk with, share struggles with, and encourage, as I truly do benefit from human interaction, both virtual and personal.
Anyway, a bit about myself:
I am 24, mother of 2 3-year old little boys, engaged (planning to elope!), trying to buy a house, office manager for the family business. I love to read, am obsessed with Game of Thrones, and enjoy videogaming when I can! I also really enjoy gardening, cooking, camping, and hiking.
I too am having trouble with this. I feel like my life right now is just a dream and things aren’t real. I find myself questioning everything like why an I talking how am I talking staring at things and being like that isnt even real. It’s so scary and I wish it to just go away.