Okay… so I’ve been having this issue for some years now. In fourth grade I asked a girl out for the first time and no idea what the hell i was doing. I always called myself straight till 9th grade and came out as pansexual. Wrong. I was Bi, still am bi. But as a kid I always hanged out with boys, yeah I had friends of girls but I really just got along with the guys. I would always be the only girl who raced them and tried my hardest to get better in order to bet them, those punks, hehe. I was the only girl on the football team for two years. I wonder what happened to them. That’s beside the point, I never really liked being a girl… Because in middle school we had dress code, I never really felt weird about being a girl because the shirts didn’t really make me look like one. It wasn’t till high school that I had realized that I liked the way guys dressed. Like I would look at two guys and if I had a crush I would try and dress like his friend. I would try to be like his friend cause obviously if he was friends with him then he liked him. But most of my school is filled with read neck deadbeats waiting to happen. So guys didn’t really come out. But it wasn’t till this year that I saw an large amount of guys come out, which is awesome and no one really has an issue with it. So I haven’t come out to any of my family. I have told my friends i’m bi. But… today is the day I come out as transgender ftm. I have a birth name that’s unisex, but I don’t like it. My name is Jason. I’m 16. Trying to just be the bi guy that I am. I have gotten a lot of support and confrontation from coming out to the few people I have. I am trying to be who I want to be and that’s all that matters to me. I am tried of living for others besides myself. I want to be Jason King. The guy who has been locked away.
People continue to true and say my new name. I get they aren’t going to get it every time and they’re going to mess up. I’m not mad. But those who I thought were my friends say that they will not call me Jason until I legally do so. And I can’t do that till I’m 18. 2 long booty behind years. And I can’t get surgery till then either. I just want this and I understand that I wont be excepted by a few people maybe even everyone that hasn’t already excepted me.
Alright… I’m done. Just need help finding a binder…
Jason King…
Stay strong! 🙂
Thx
Hey Jason, hope you’re well 🙂 i just got out of highschool 2 years ago and didn’t realize how ffn queer i am until like this year, i thought i wanted to sleep with the boys that actually i wanted to be and look like the girls i wanted to eat x) now i know i’m nonbinary and pansexual and in an environment where i can be comfortable in it. anyway, good luck! highschool sucks and it’s weird, but soon you’ll be out and the rest of the world is so much more fun and you can find people who recognize you for the bi babe boy i’m sure you are. anyway, good luck and things get better after school (really, no bullshit). sending love, peace.
Thank you so much, my person. (Sorry if that was weird but I call that to all my non binary friends)