Ok, I wasn't comfortable trolling the forum boards for money, even though I'm a Tribemember, but blogging about it is ok, I guess. This isn't an ad, I swear; in fact, if you're worried it's an ad, skip the next blurb to continue with my actual blog.

On April 28th, Ialong with thousands of others will be skydiving to raise funds for the victims, awareness, and prevention of sexual assault. I want to raise $850 for SOAR (Speaking out about Rape) so would you please donate to help make that happen?

The FBI categorizes rape as the most violent and traumatic crime a victim lives to remember. Help me do something about it by going to my page and clicking donate. I know we're all broke, but even a dollar helps someone who needs it.

That's the canned request I was given for this thing I'm doing called Operation Freefall. Seems like a great idea for someone with multiple anxiety disorders, right?

I don't know if I'm absurdly courageous or an absolute idiot.

I've committed to raising $850, and, uh, yeah, also jumping out of a perfectly good airplane.

You can see where this is going. I'm anxious. I'm going to have a panic attack. the night before, on the plane, midair, I don't know but it's going to happen and it's going to be awful because I really would prefer not to wimp out and I would love, love, love to feel good about myself for the rest of my life for following through with this, but I'm worried it's going to be too difficult for me.

And anyway, I still need $850. If anyone is comfortable donating (I will never even see the money; it's instantaneously deposited into the charity) that would be greatly appreciated.

http://www.firstgiving.com/fundraiser/kristenpulkstenis/operationfreefall2012

Right now, I'm just ignoring the whole situation and preparing to let the anxiety crush me the day before. I don't know what else to do.