I’ve never loved someone- I’ve never been in love before. I’ve written about it in great length in my stories. Two people who fall in love and want to defy fate to stay together. To love someone so fully and deeply with every broken part of yourself. I sometimes wonder how capable I am of loving someone. Trusting someone is going to be the biggest step for me. I’ve only known relationships where I’m being manipulated and eventually abandoned one way or another. Loneliness has creeped its way inside of me. Despite being adapted to being an independent person, I am lonely. So much has changed in my life in such a rapid current that I am just getting my footing. I’m estranged from even more relatives than before. I don’t have a friend circle so it’s usually just me. I am glad things are normal for me but normalcy doesn’t erase years worth of damage to me. This isn’t me victimizing my self I’m just being realistic that I have a past. I’ve spent too many years around people who have used my vulnerabilities against me. Who have used my most painful experiences as some joke. Right now I’m just wondering.
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Stuck
beachgirl20, , Uncategorized, Anxiety, PTSD, Sex Therapy, Sleep Disorders, Therapy, 0
Lately I just feel stuck. Stuck with these intrusive thoughts about being sexually assaulted again. It’s like.. I have...
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I’m Alive
hispanicwithanItalianfirstname, , Uncategorized, 0
I’ve struggled but I’m here. If I can, you can too.
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To my beautiful young friends
Sanatee, , Anxiety, Depression, Teens, Uncategorized, Anxiety, Child, Domestic Abuse, Relationships, 0
I was writing in my journal today about my abuse. I suspect it started when I was a toddler. ...
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new meds?
ElizabethMinette, , Uncategorized, Anxiety, Depression, Questions, Sleep Disorders, Stress, Suicide, Therapist, 0
so do you ever wonder why they always want to change your meds when you are at your worst?...
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Judgement and Redemption
EastAfrique, , Uncategorized, Forgiveness, Religion, 0
The most powerful affirmation I have come up with in the past few months is one that is biblical...
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What to say…..
tribelled2, , Uncategorized, Child, Relationships, Sex Therapy, 0
Today my eldest child my daughter asked about her dad…not strange if I had her traditionally. after marriage and...
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Embracing the Radiance: The Power of Sunshine
Judithsantos, , Uncategorized, Sleep Disorders, Stress, Weight Loss, 0
Sunshine, the celestial source of light and warmth, holds a profound influence on our lives, both physically and mentally....
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Alone Forever returned blog 2 – useful coping strategies
AloneForever, , Uncategorized, Anxiety, Autism, Depression, PTSD, Sex Therapy, Sexual Abuse, 0
By the way I had hundreds of blogs here but deleted them and regret it, maybe they on Google...