This is my first blog on here. I’m trying something new because I really need some help. Its very hard for me to reach out and talk to people but I’m going to try. Ive had anxiety and depression for about 4 years now, but today/the last week it’s been really bad and it starts to scare me. I guess I just want some tips on what to do.. I try to write everything down or listen to music but I can’t seem to make my mind actually get away from it all. I already have seen a therapist for about 2 years but I don’t anymore. So I guess what I am wondering is how do you control your anxiety? How do you make the attacks go away? What calms you down? Maybe I could try those and see if it gets better for me. Im just tired of everything. I hate that I had to seek this out but at least I know I am trying to get some help. Sometimes I feel like such a failure and like I cant even make it through the simple stuff in life how am I going to make it through like it really is so frustrating. I know others feel like I do and that Im not alone, but I feel alone with it 24/7 and I hate it.. i have had suicides in my family and know that it is not an option but it still gets into my head and its like i cant get it to go away. i try to think of other things but when i get into those horrible lows i cant get out. the other day was so bad and all i could think was i wanted to go to sleep.. i dont want to live the rest of my life like this. i want to be normal and not have to deal with this dragging me down everyday. im sorry that this sounds so depressing. just trying to get some tips on what i should do to help myself.