Here Before
I’ve seen myself here before
Laying face down on the floor
Seeing myself out of my body
Like I’m fighting out in Saudi
Up so high then down so low
Toxic positivity fo sho
Never knew it could be like this
Pugnacious to find bliss
All I need is that sweet balance
To marry my energies like tetravalence
I have faith I’ll make it through this day
No longer seeing life as grey
One day I’ll be healed from this pain
Or at least it will soften on my brain
Gotta let myself feel these emotions
To get out of the deep oceans
I wish this poem had a happy ending
But there’s a long road ahead amending
Before I was afraid to feel
Keeping me from making this deal
I didn’t want to admit I was sad
Which only put me in a sever case of GAD
Dismissing fear, I’m ready to slow down
Gotta fix that tilting crown
I see the good & I see the bad
Organize them in decad
Hoping to find a truer version of myself
Taking time for all the subjects on the shelf
Fighting a better fight this time
To tender to my inner hime