I know am going to Hell, and I can\’t stop it.

My life, I just can\’t live one, even when I have help it just doesn\’t help at all.

People tell me, Push though, healing takes time, put some effort in. But those things I can\’t do it, I can\’t push though my life, my memory\’s will always stay with me, I CAN\’T take time to heal, that is what breaks me, and I CAN\’T put effort when I can\’t even walk without falling.

I can\’t walk, I can\’t sleep, I can\’t do ANYTHING without stumbling and then falling to the ground and I CAN\’T get up. I can\’t do it, I JUST CAN\’T.

People can tell me what ever they want, but it won\’t help cause people say they know what am going though, I DON\’T, So STOP telling me you do.

At Night I see her and the cat, those memory\’s play back again and again in my head. I could have saved both of them, I COULD HAVE. My life is over so why should I keep going. MY mind can only take little bit and am past that limit its only a matter of time I go INSANE, Maybe am already insane.

There\’s nothing that people can do to stop it, I can\’t stop it. IF only I DIE, that might actually help.