I feel so tired and out of sorts. Like I’m crawling out of my skin. I feel so irritated and powerless. I wish my situation was better. I am so tired of people depending on me and always asking things of me. I just want to be left alone for once. My family is always in need of attention and I just don’t have much to give. If I need things from them I can’t get them. I feel like everyone is sucking the energy from me. Why can’t there be more giving and less taking? I wish I didn’t have any responsibilities. I just can’t take on everyone’s shit anymore. I hardly sleep I’m always sick. I just need to get healthy. I can’t get healthy if I have all these energy suckers around me. I need to get better. I can’t continue to be sick like this. I want to be well!
Incubus
“Make Yourself”
If I hadn’t assembled myself, I’d have fallen apart by now
If I hadn’t made me, I’d be more inclined to bow
Powers that be, would have swallowed me up
But that’s more than I can allow
Bow, aww yeah
If you let them make you, they’ll make you paper mache
At a distance you’re strong, until the wind comes
Then you crumble and blow away
If you let them fuck you, there will be no fore-play
Rest assured, they’ll screw you complete
Til your ass is blue and gray
You should make amends with you
If only for better health, better health
But if you really want to live
Why not try, and make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself
If I hadn’t made me, I’d have fallen apart by now
I won’t let them make me, It’s more than I can allow
So when I make me, I won’t be paper mache
And if I fuck me, I’ll fuck me my own way
POW, fuck me in my own way
POW, fuck me in my own way
POW, fuck me in my own way
Fuck me in my own way
You should make amends with you
If only for better health, better health
But if you really want to live
Why not try, and make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself
***hugs***
My friend, you are not alone in the struggle. People are gonna be who/what they are, regardless of how giving or caring WE are. *sigh It’s just how it is. Sadly. The only ‘advice’ i can share on the subject: if you’re that fed up with people, maybe it’s time to take care’a you for a change, and if they want to continue to be a part of your life, they’ll start meeting you a lil more than they have been (probably not half-way, but if they try, you’ll know). It’s so hard when you get to this point, especially when you know most people in your life really don’t get it, nor do they care…. So, lean in when ya need to and do what you need to, to take care’a YOU. If they still want to be in your life, they will do something about it. If not, well, at least you’ll know and can act accordingly, too.