I have to stop caring
I have to stop sharing
yet it’s all I know
All I know is to break myself
I do anything to please
I’ll even hurt myself
If that’s what you please
I don’t want to be abandon
Please don’t leave me behind again
Help me understand
Tell me what to be and I’ll be it
Tell me what you want from me I’ll give it
Just say it I’ll do it
Please don’t leave me
I’m under your control we all know it
I’m just a dirty welcome mat
I’m just a broken child’s toy
An Unwanted Child
A messed up soul
A warm heart that is growing cold
A wilting flower
I am a dog left out in the cold
I am alone
Completely and utterly alone
No matter what I try
No matter how I cry
I turn up the same way
Broken and alone
Til the next person finds me
But I guess I’m just as selfish
I want things I can not have
I force myself to change so I will not be looked down on by the crowd
Instead I look up
Look for clues of who I once was
Sitting in the lost and found
I’m just a puppy in the pound being looked over and ignored
Again and again
I am not worthy of the things I have
I do not deserve the people I love
I was made to be alone
I need to stop caring
I need to stop sharing
It’s hurting me
I’m sorry for being selfish right now
I’m sorry for hanging around
Yet apparently I’m just another bitch faced teen with fucked up dreams
Yelling “Fuck the world!” and “Fuck the police!” “Life doesn’t matter it’s all a conspiracy”
I’m scared of the future the past and the present
No where to run from my fears because they in body them self in my peers
I’m not ok
No matter how I say I am
I am nothing but a waste of space
I’m tired of crying
I’m tired of lying
I’m tired of trying
I’m tired
But why am I the one tired?
After all I’m just some attention seeking teen
~Y.F.
Wow. You sure are great at expressing yourself. That piece definately got my attention. Thanks for sharing.