well guys im finally back, its been a long time right after i joined the tribe i was doing well but unfortunately wasnt staying away from old friends or places and ended up kid nappd n held captive almst 9 mos, t

it was complete hell an almost cost me my life dureimg tht period i was sober an really thought he would kill me before it was all over, that time i was chained up out in the middel of no placeand no one was looking for me, the sad trueth is i had ran off so many times befor and relapsed my family n friends figured thats wat i did, anyway alot happend out there ant

the last five days he had me he beat me almost to death for 5 days strait high on meth everytime i so much as twitch he just whaled on me kicking me in my face neck back, i was raped brutely and s

by gods saveing grace 2 lil boys out playn in the woods dame through there while he had me ro;;d up in a blanket digging a shallow grave to put me in an ran for help….. everyday i realize how lucky i am that im even alive what sucks is sinse that happend ive been on opiates heavy , when i got out of hospital i had severe ptsd an pain from bein beaten so badly it didnt take long before i was injecting the pills an scoreing thm off strret becuz my script only lasted 4 days maybe thn it was herion when i couldnt get or afford pills , my life is jus upside dwn and i kmw tht if i continue this was i will die ive been calling doctors for mos. trying to get help thy all say i will not be able to deal with my pain without the pills or dnt take my insurance ect.. anyway after enough trying i found sumone to help me an i start withdrawls tues and wed, i strt suboxone i hear good things about it and i pray to god it works i cant live like this anymore, well all its good to be back, pray for me im gunna need all the help i can get im so scared right now i dnt do opiate sik well at all 24 hrs is gunna feel like forever, sinse i was here last ive burried 4 more of my friends an seen several go to prison its a fkd up disease it hurts kills and takes away anythng good in this life. i lov ya all an hope everyone is in good spirits an doing well god bless