So it’s a new day. I can’t remember much of last night. I know something happened with my ptsd and it wasn’t great. My friends feel like I’m pushing them away my boyfriend feels the same way and they are just letting me. It’s just natural for me to do that especially when I’m afraid… I’m really having a rough morning. Not the normal hey I don’t want to get up because of I don’t feel well… It’s a hey I really don’t feel well and had a really rough night. I’m really really trying to do better mentally with all my mental problems… But I don’t think it’s going very well… I honestly feel like I’m losing everything including myself… I mean gaming helps put a slight smile on my face but then my mental health hits….