I'm not a type of person that blog much. I know that if I did, I bet I could get through the tough times that my life has become.

Let me start by say, that the last couple of months have been stressful. I found out that the family that I work for will be moving to TX.That took some time to take in, but then I was asked to go with them. I took them up on the offer to make the move also to the state of TX.Knowing that there is not much to stay where I'm at now,with the way jobs are in my home state. Also with the rocking relationship that I have with my mom and my in-laws. But with my social anxiety and PTSD getting in the way at times. I doubt my self that I can do this. My husband is behind me, that I can do this. But it's hard to see the big picture sometimes.

Well yesterday morning I woke-up and checked my phone. I had a text from my female boss that her mother-in-law that passed. The type of person that I am I broke into tear. I know the lady that passed away and I had grown close to her over the time that I have worked for this family. With me being the nanny/mother type to the childern I had to explain to the oldest child that her Grandma was gone and not coming back when I got to work. With the phone ringing off the hook all day and plans being made to go to CA for the funeral. I tried to keep the day as much normal for the children as much as possible. Well at the end of the day, I was asked to make the trip with the family to CA. I leave Wed afternoon and I expected to be gone 6 to 7 days. I have never been away for my husband for that long of time in our 15 years of marriage. More less be with people that are not family, and only know them for a little over a year. Will I be able to handle the stress of be away from my husband, my social anxiety and the lost of the lady that I adore. I fear that I will lose it..Please pray for me and keep me in your thoughts in my maze of life.