All has been well. The thyroid has really been a big part of the depression. Yet, also so many other factors that just lately it feels like dragging in cement. But, I have this fire in me to take even the most and slightest suggestion of gratitude..and maximize it. And when you do.. its like primer..and its a coat.. Like underpainting in an oil. It will push and pop the brilliance through the darkness.

However, some very good news. I have been offered scholarship assistance for a Masters in Theology. 20 years of work, self study in metaphysics, spirituality (all areas of it. buddhism, vedic, egyptian and norse wicca, high magick, low magick, fae, quantum physics, native american, christianity and everything in between). As I will of course, continue with my main work in the visual arts. I have a show in April and closer to seeing the end of 15 paintings I need finished. I still have a Lilith painting that is waiting til it's ready to be completed. But, the last week has been.. just get one or two done at a time.

Careful what you ask for. I've always said, outloud.. (and if you add laughter, that adds more vibration to the energy).. I would love to go back to collage for the philosphy, arts and the 'work of divine'. Well. Bam. It happened.

I've been feeling a bit better. Of course, I quit smoking. And back to yoga and qi gong. Thanks to those great electronic cigs. I laugh as it looks like I have a Lancome mascara in my mouth. Ha! But, I've been free of smoking for a week and don't miss it, nor have the urge. Instead, when I need a puff, I puff on blueberry vapor.

Saw "The Rite". It was fun. I've read Fr. Malachi Martin's work many years ago on the real deal of this subject. He truly was an amazing brilliant man who wrote amazing works on the subject.