so iv been feeling to fat cuz my girlfriend told me that she dose not date girls that r fat so iv been starving my self.   we do a lot together and im always at her house or shes at mine but she dose make random comments about me or the way i look or the way i do stuff or she will say stuff about the way she likes the people she dates to look. She makes me feel imperfect and that im ugly or im doing every thing wrong so i dont eat so i can stay skinny and i dress in stuff she got me even tho i dont feel convertible in them and i do stuff just for her that i dont like. like i go to party’s all the time with her but i would rather stay inside and watch a good scary move. She also hits me when i tell her no. she tells me that im over reacting and im always complaining when i try to talk to her about stuff like this. And she tells me  that i should be happy she is even my girlfriend cuz girls like me r always left behind and no one love girls like me. and she tells me if i broke up will her i will be alone for ever so she is the only one iv got that will love me for me even tho she is always trying to change me. When she ask why im not eating I tell her ” cuz im trying to get skinny for u” She tells me i dont have to do that and the she see me eat something later on and she will look and me and say  that people that eat and are not skinny r ugly and she will never date them. so i just go days without eating and if i do eat i throw it up right after eating cuz i dont know what to do any more. Shes making  me feel less then a human and making me feel unworthy of any ones love.  I cant do anything that i love doing like watching scary movies or anime or play with my pets i cant even feed my frogs a hole lot cuz she is always around cuz she thinks if im left alone some other girl or guy may try to get in a relationship with me  cuz im to cute to be left alone but then she turns around and call me ugly and tell me no one wants me. She also likes to assume im calling her ugly or i dont love her but i tell her she is ok and i still love her but i dont know if i do any more but im to scared to say anything cuz the last time i tred to tell how she was making me fell she fucking hit me and that was yesterday. Im always asking my self why am i still with her even tho i know that she is not good for me and that im not happy. And some how I always think it my flute for being the why i am  and not being good enough. Also some how i tell my self that she is doing nothing wrong and all she is do is looking out for me cuz she loves me. even when i know thats a lie. i just cant seem to end it will her. I tell my self i dont need to starve my self but when i dont i feel like shit and feel like im not worthy of anyone’s love and that she is right no one will like a girl like me so i should be happy that im with her. but still i feel that its bad for me to be with her. but yet i keep telling myself shes not bad she just loves me she just wants the best for me. but i know deep down its not turn. so at this pint i dont know what to do or say i just need help cuz i need to stop starving myself i need to stop feeling the way i do but if i do try to leave her she is hit me. also my friend keeps saying she is abusing me but i dont even know if u can say what she is doing to me is abuse.