Monday, blah.

So I’ve decided to ramble on a bit. Same old crap as usual. I feel empty and angry (which I’m not sure how the two can happen at the same time). Angry that here I am at in the place still. My duties and responsibilities keep adding up and being piled on my back. I get no sense of compensation on the way either. I know I have to suck it up and just ask for what I feel and know I deserve. Easier said then done unfortunately. I hate asking for money. In all aspects even when it comes to justly deserved pay. I’ve taken on more and more duties and been here for 10 months. I know I’ve not been here for a year but I’ve taken on a whole other job title basically. I think I get down every week, every Monday I start from square 1 all over again. This weekend was fine, went by to fast but nothing unusual about that. I took my foster pup to the petsmart adoption day and it was super slow, no one really seemed overly interested in her. She’s a black lab so I fear that she’s going to be overlooked more often then a dog with some striking odd feature. She’s sweet and I feel bad that she’s been tossed around. Hopefully she’ll get her home soon. Sunday I was tired. I went to the mall to try to find more dress pants for work and as always came up empty handed and overly disappointed. I must be the most odd sized person out there because they are either perfect in the waist and SUPER long or too big in the butt, too short, too much room in the crotch…I just don’t get it! Why do they think that girls that are a size 3 are 5’10’’?? Haven’t they ever seen a normally proportionate person who’s not a stick? Anyways, I gave up and just wanted to go home after that. I’ve been feeling drained. Every morning I wake up and just cringe at the thought of another bloody day. Another day to be annoyed, frustrated, taken advantage of and pretend to be happy when I’m not. Anyways, nothing important, life altering or interesting to talk about. Just the normal humdrum of my boring life and shitty work.