I have this need where I just want to talk and talk and talk more.It’s like I have so many things bottled inside of me-not necessarily all bad-but they just have to be out in the open because I want them to be out in the open.

It’s a period in my life that most things are so confusing and hard and unreachable and I’m really trying to be positive and optimistic here.And it’s just that sometimes I just start to lose it because being positive isn’t enough.Like two minutes ago before I started writing this I thought I was fine and right now I’m starting to feel a little hollow.

I have people in my life that support me but I don’t know what’s wrong.Or can’t accept it .My own biggest chronic problem is hard to solve.It needs so much will power and determination to keep going and I’ve tried.So many times.But I always stop.I don’t know how not to stop.I really need to get this over with because this is maybe the first and most important source of my problems.I hope I can do this.I really hope so.