im new to this and im 40 yrs old..just want to know if alot of people or anyone identifies with some of these and im sure alot do,,just a bit of my "story" i have had ocd for 30yrs..its not who i am its just a very intrusive part of my life,,im alot more than the disease..its hard thou for me to socialize i feel so awkard and out of place…i assign to colors to everything!! blue green purple silver gold is good. black brown grey red yellow is bad,,as i walk by something if i see the good color i have to maintain it in my head for like a minute,,if the color varies in anyway i have to look at the object again and try to maintain the good color till im "satisfied" ,,if im walking out of my house and i bump into my shoe on the floor i take it as a :sign" i bettr go back and check for fire..im just giving some of the stuff i do…i project my thoughts alot on others,kind of "magical thinking" i think i know what they are feeling towards me,,i have had enough girlfriends but always some how "sabatoge it" i wish i could socialize more but again its so weird to me..my life is basically my family and 2 little nephews,,,i wish it was more..i have so much to offer ,,i have such a big heart but i dont now how to give it,,,i have been in so many programs thru my life and seen so many doctors..im in a great one now ,we have groups 3 days a week for 3 hours and i see a psychatrist..but truthfully it hasnt helped as much as i liked…i feel great when im around people i trust i can actually "let them in" i had alot of bullying issues growing up alot of abuse which i think made the ocd worse..im sure it did…im very defensive i dont wanna be,,,,,,,,,,,ok that a bit about me lol :)))))))))))))))))))))))) thank u