My name is Andy and this is a story on persevering. I never thought I would be hit with anxiety and depression. I started 6th grade and did pretty well, around the middle of the year, people started making fun of me cause I had long hair for a boy, I started to be insecure, they laughed at my shoes and clothes, mind you I couldn’t afford main stream brands. I lived in a one bedroom apartment with my mother and 2 older brothers. I developed anxiety and every morning I hated school because of the harsh reality and things people said to me. I failed the sixth grade. they passed me anyway, over the summer I cut my hair an tried to act like everyone else. I started 7th grade okay, but my anxiety was bad, I could just barely manage to stay in class. I got teased very rarely but when it happened it hurt. I failed the 7th grade, I had to redo it and somehow I passed it. my anxiety got worse and worse in 8th grade and I hated going outside and interacting with people. I barely passed 8th grade but during that summer I got hit with depression. I am absolutely failing the 9th grade. But. Even though you are inevitably feeling sad, knowing that there can be small things that inspire you can and times that make you happy can make 100% a difference. If you take this sadness, and stress and anything that brings you down. harness it and use it as motivation and go forward, don’ hesitate, move forward. As Will Smith said his movie ”The Pursuit Happiness”, ”you have a dream? you want something, go get it, period.” If you have a dream like me, for me I love nature and animals and I like learning about them, take the dream and focus and go for it, don’t let nobody bring you down cause you once you start rolling there is no going back, just the path to greatness. My family always kept picking at me, ” andy all you do is sit in your room and play overwatch”. And I said, of course, it’s one of the things I am passionate about. Strive to go beyond greatness and no matter how hard the path is, if you keep going one day you will make it.
”yes the past can hurt, but you can either run from it, or run from it” -Rafiki, Lion King
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Thank you so much for this. I can definitely relate to the middle school bullying thing. I was bullied from 3-6th grade because I was “weird” and “annoying”. Now even though I do not get bullied I do find myself not opening up or talking to people because I continue to think that I “annoy” everybody or I am too weird. This is why I stay in my room writing, watching game plays, and watching movies. I feel somewhat happier on the internet watching movies and playing games because this is the one time that I can leave my body and not focus on my insecurities and I can just laugh and be content. I am trying to break out of that shell though and actually talk to people and not feel so insecure. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Likewise, I am here to talk anytime.
Glad to know you can relate. Your welcome